Hello my Lovelies,
I am sorry I have been absent for a whole month. What started as a bit of a staycation became a full-blown nightmare, when Husband’s mother became seriously ill and nearly died. We have spent the best part of the last month travelling between home and Oxford, juggling doctors and carers, fighting needless battles, emotionally stretched to the limit. I have to tell you that this is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, trying to help not one but two old ladies who refuse to admit they need help, and who have lost the capacity for reasoned argument. Anyone who has had to deal with Alzheimers disease will understand what I mean. On the other hand, I was able to find reserves of compassion and care that I never thought I had.
Last week, we finally managed to have some time alone together, something of a holiday, although we stayed at home. Husband is desperately exhausted, a situation not helped by the stress, and his diabetes. He has gone back to work today, but I think we had a little respite that did him good.
And so today I resume my own life, my writing life.
This afternoon I am going to sit down with my diary and journal and work out what I want to achieve this Autumn, where I want my writing to go after all this upheaval. I am grounding myself once more in my life, in my creativity, because I know that the only way to cope with this ongoing situation (and lets face it, it could go on for years more) and stay sane, is to have a life of my own, work of my own, something to distract myself from the worry, something to sink into and forget.
This is why we need creativity.
(Or at least, this is why I need creativity.)
Because Creativity rescues us when nothing else can, gives us a distraction, a reason to keep exploring, keep hoping, keep going. And there are times in our lives when our art, our creativity, is the only thing that can save us.
I hope that where ever you are in your life, whatever challenges you face, that your creativity will provide you with a lifeboat to carry you to safety.
And I also want to thank you for being here with me. Its really great to be back!