I had a wobble today.
The ‘Writers Block’ wobble.
You know the one:
I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t I cant I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t I cant I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t I cant I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t I cant I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t I cant I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t I cant I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t I cantI can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t I cant I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t I cantI can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t I cant I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t I cant I can’t
and so on and so forth.
That moment when you think:
I have nothing to write about, nothing to say, no way of saying it. I am empty, dry. I will never write another word again.
Oh, the horror, the horror…
But that’s not true.
The real truth is that I am avoiding writing what I know I should be writing. (oh yes, oops, prizes for all those who picked out the Bingo! word there – SHOULD. Because we don’t do SHOULDS here at Evenlode’s Friend, do we?)
I have a great list of ideas of things to tell you about. But right now, the juice is not flowing. I don’t want to do them. I feel like the idea of my writing about writing or creativity is preposterous. I mean, what the hell do I know?
It is a very short step from here to writers block, the neurosis that prevents otherwise creative people from writing for months, years, sometimes forever. It is a scary thought. I don’t want to go there.
Maybe I am just not ready yet. Maybe I am still getting over my family care stint. It was, after all, pretty emotionally demanding in so many ways. And physically too. Frankly, I don’t feel well, either.
So, instead of beating myself up about all the things I SHOULD be writing, I decided to write what I COULD write. I always have a little story going on my head, something to pass the time, a little tale to entertain me, a bit of dialogue, a few jokes, anything from a silly children’s fable to a torrid love scene. Something was definitely developing while I was ironing pillowcases after lunch, so I decided I would write it down and see what happened.
Pen to paper.
Two hours later, and here I am with a 2000 word fanfic done and able to write the blog post I never thought I would be able to get to you today.
The Moral of the Story:
It doesn’t matter what it is, or if its good, or whether anybody will ever see it. It doesn’t matter what it is about, whether it is part of your novel, or a section of your non-fiction book, a bit of memoir or just a few lines of description.
Just write something.
And once you get a few words lined up on the page, you will find you can get a few more lined up. And then a few more. And then, O Wonder of Wonders! You will be writing again.
Please do not allow yourself to tip over the edge into CAN’T. Take a deep breath, get out your pen and write a shopping list. Or a list of the things you can hear right now. Or what that smell reminds you of.
Because you CAN.
Thank you for this post! I really needed this…I’ve been facing some writer’s block of my own. But I will try your advice, and see what happens. Good luck to you on your own writing!
I hope you manage to get a handle on it. The key seems to me to be compassionate towards yourself, and just do what little you can, so long as you do something. Do let me know how you get on – I’m sending positive vibes!
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