We just got back from a demanding time in Oxford, and after the difficult fortnight we have had, I find myself feeling emotionally as well as physically exhausted. So when I found this post from Jamie Ridler this morning, I realised I had to make a concerted effort to have some healing time.
One of the hardest things to accept about our creativity is that it often comes and goes. There are times of bounty, when the Muse is flowing and there are so many ideas coming into your head and out of your pen that you feel like you could get hysterical just trying to keep pace.
And there are the droughts. The times when nothing new has come for months, and you feel like you may never paint or write or dance again.
One of the things that my ME/CFS has taught me, and continues to teach me, is to go with that flow. There are times of the year when our bodies need downtime, and times when our tails are up and we are full of energy. Any woman knows this from her menstrual cycle.
The trouble is that we live in a 24/7 culture that requires us to be ‘on’ seven days a week, twelve months a year, and our biology just hasn’t evolved sufficiently to keep up with that. (We’ve only had the lightbulb for a hundred years or so, remember?) We simply can’t be in action continually. We aren’t machines. We have to stop and rest.
Resisting that PUSHPUSHPUSH productivity mindset is a constant practise, but if you are intent on living a truly creative life, you need to take account of not only your own biorhythms, but also your creative rhythms.
It is time to be gentle with ourselves.
Because if we don’t make time to be gentle with ourselves, our bodies will remind us that we must in no uncertain terms – often with the red traffic light of major illness.
So this week, I am resolved not to make any particular demands on myself. I will be journalling, and watching some old films, eating nurturing food, and taking lots of naps. Maybe I’ll even paint my toenails, which always cheers me up! I am going to take it one day at a time and listen to what my body needs. By doing that, I know my mojo will come back eventually. I just need to give it some space.
Happy creating – or resting, whichever you need to do right now,