One of my writing goals for this summer is to clear the decks of as many of the half-finished stories lurking in my computer files as I can. I’ve got three or four outstanding Lewis stories hanging about, and since I have a quiet week ahead of me this week, I’m hoping to tinker with them to the point of some form of completeness.
‘The Groupie Situation’ is one I’ve been working on since Laurence Fox started touring with his latest album. I’d been thinking about a story I’d heard of Japanese fans having his lyrics tattooed on their arms, which seemed a bit extreme to me. I wondered what he must think of that. And thus this story was born. And I’ve been playing with it ever since.
I have to admit when I was typing out the synopsis, I suddenly started having qualms about publishing it. It talks about a woman having an obsessive and paranoid mental illness, after all, and I reckon some people will criticise me for making sweeping generalisations, not least about women.
There will also be those who will criticise my (potentially inaccurate) depiction of medical procedures. That always happens.
I’m not a doctor. I don’t want to be a doctor. I don’t think its necessary to exhaustively research a little story’s details to the point of knowing what size needle a stitch is made with. The point is to paint an impression for the reader. A few details should tell them all they need to conjure up a treatment room, whether from their own experience or from TV medical dramas. But any more than that? No. Its just a fanfic, after all.
I’ve also decided not to publish on Fanfiction.net anymore. I’ve had such mindless trolling there, its just not worth it.
I’m putting this fic out in spite of my fears of criticism.
Its a brave act to publish any work of art. Especially when you are feeling vulnerable. But I’m increasingly of the opinion that this is my Truth, and I intend to Speak it. I believe, trust and hope that there will be others out there who will enjoy it in the spirit in which it was created. I hope you are one of them.
You can read ‘The Groupie Situation’ here at AO3.